Been really improving on my make up, which makes me so freakin happy! But my style and everything else has been SLACKING. I’ve never really been all that Stylish when it comes to hair or outfits. Hair more than clothes, I cant do shit right with my hair but my outfits are hit or miss.
Thats all gonna change
Learning to do more with my hair
And my wardrobe is improving
Along with more weight loss and better makeup skills I will be much more confident.
Need to keep progressing on this journey of self improvement.
I know where to go now
The question is how?
I have to Hike this mountain of mine and take a good look at my city.
See the dilapidation
Figure out how to build something stronger
I wont fall off here
This can be beat
Just not looking forward to these battles
Its going to get ugly.
Definitely in the process of fixing everything and rebuilding
The spark is still there I see it
I cant lose this, lose him.
He’s so Passionate about our love
About keeping it alive
I cant let that slip away
He is my soul mate
He keeps me grounded
So understanding and forgiving
Definitely a rarity
Recently Ive been really trying to figure out whats wrong with me.
Im tired of being soft as a cotton ball
So emotional so Fragile
Crazy one minute and blank the next
If I dont progress more I think I’m going to lose it.
I feel so strongly about everything it ridiculous and will be my downfall
Today wasnt bad at all
Went to my brother’s with my loves and watched movies while I got laundry done, folded and everything.
Also got one of our major bills paid off, just two more left.
The baby finally has a high chair as well and spoons. Our little house is coming together, slowly but surely.
I feel like Im really loosing my mind
Im happy with my love but I dont show him
He’s as Perplexed as I am with all thats been going on
We’re left with no words in this chaos
I’m dragging him through this darkness
Its consuming him
My poor love
I’m troubled and he still loves me