Melancholy Doll

The darkest part of my mind

The point of no return 

It sucks that we’ve hit this point 

Things were supposed to be different 

This love was supposed to be different 

But it’s looking like the same the shit just a different toilet.

Don’t know where to go from here just wait to see how things go till the lease is up.

It really was beautiful at one point


Been doing good 
Today was weird but that’s ok 

Need to watch myself more but lesson learned 

Caught myself 

Just felt the need to type it all down.


Tomorrow I will be going to my moms house for dinner. Its been two weeks since my first pic and feel like its a good time to take my second one.

Ive lost at least a pound and am really proud of it.


So Ive started doing yoga and its been helping so much. I was sad at first discouraging myself but the results are showing and that was the boost I needed. 

There’s  also a side project with this, it involves pictures. They’ll be my progress pics. 

Ive already taken the first one it will be posted soon.


There’s progress in many areas 
Body: Im keeping on my excersizes, started yoga, eating less, and drinking water.

 Need to eat better 

Relationships: Better interactions between my love ones and I

 Need to go to my mom’s house more

 Need to be a better mom

Mind: opening my mind more and learning new languages. 

 Need to quit being so irrational 

There much more progress to be made but I feel like Im on a good path that way.

I won’t go down easy Im ready for these battles.

Old habits die hard

Its been up and down since I last posted. Then again when are things not up or down? I guess it’s weirder because of everything recently, I see things differently.

A part of me loves it and wants to nurture this but the other part fights it.

I feel more torn than ever. 


It’s been a while since Ive been on.
I fell into a funk

Wandered off trial 

But I’m back at it 

This phoenix is rising from the ashes 

Seeing more with my eye and less with my eyes.

3 Days 3 Quotes – Day 1

Id like to thank Linking ink for nominating me. I know its a little late but I’m still really excited to do it. A lot of thought has been put into it over the past couple days.

The rules are

  • Thank the person who nominated you
  • Post quotes for 3 consecutive days
  • Nominate 3 people each day (no repeats) 

Here we go (:  

“Cogito ergo sum”

                            -René Descartes

I have chosen this quote and it alone for day 1. 

 This has had a huge impact on me. It will always represent the start of my journey, my hike up the mountain, the changing of my thought process, and my questioning everything.

My mind keeps growing and for this I am truly thankful. 

I am definitely going to get a tattoo of this quote on me because of all this.



Not over 

It may seem like the journey is over

Like I’ve given up

Thats far from true

I will keep pushing forward

There’s no going back

Not till Ive looked upon my city

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